What Being Abducted in South Sudan Taught Me About Courage and Connection 

It’s late afternoon, and I’ve been running for hours through the forest, mud clinging to my boots, sweat mixing with rain. I don’t know where I am. I don’t know if I’ll survive. The men who took us have made their threats clear. 

I’m exhausted. I think about my mother, my two young children. I try not to picture their faces – but I do. I can’t help it. 

I never thought this would be how my life might end. 

Earlier that morning, something told me not to get in the car. But I brushed it off. I work for Women for Women International, a nonprofit that supports women survivors of war.

I’ve told dozens of stories about the women we serve – stories of strength, of violence, of unimaginable resilience. But I never imagined I’d live one of those stories myself.

We were driving out of Yei, South Sudan, heading toward our training centre, when we saw armed men in military raincoats. We assumed it was a checkpoint. But then more men appeared, surrounding our vehicle, signaling us to turn off the road. That’s when I knew something was terribly wrong. 

They ordered us out of the car. “Don’t try to hide anything,” they warned. We obeyed. They took what little we had, and forced us to walk with them into the forest. 

Hours passed. We were exhausted, frightened, uncertain what would happen next. At one point, they separated part of our group. I remember feeling a deep ache in my chest as I watched my colleagues disappear into the trees. 

The rest of us were led deeper into the forest. Every time we stumbled, they struck us. Eventually, we reached a new hideout. The air was thick and silent except for the sound of rain hitting the leaves. I could feel the weight of the day pressing down on me. 

At some point, I stopped fighting the fear. I lay down on the cold, muddy forest floor, wrapped in my jacket, and fell asleep. 

When I woke up, something had changed. The men were talking quietly, their tone less harsh. Then, suddenly, they told us to leave. I didn’t believe them at first. But we walked, step by step, out of that forest. No sounds. No gunfire. Just silence. We were free. 

Hours later, after flagging down a passing vehicle, we made it back to Yei. Alive.

But freedom didn’t bring peace. In the days that followed, I was consumed by anger – anger at how close I came to not surviving, and at how often this happens in South Sudan. I asked myself: Is this job worth my life? My family begged me to quit. 

But something inside me had changed. 

For years, I’ve listened to women share their stories of survival –stories of violence, of loss, of finding hope again. I thought I understood them. I thought empathy was enough. But after what happened, I realised there’s a difference between understanding and knowing.